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We weren’t even allowed to go to church without ID.

Even the English were quite discriminating.

When the English came to the farmer’s the first time,

armed and strict, I (being a child) thought:

‘Why does the war keep on, although it is over?’

We did not understand that there were still armed men coming to the house.

Although we knew the English to be our confederates and helpers,

it was a big disappointment later.

I still can’t understand why the English

let themselves be so influenced by the Nazis

and we – the partisans and the Slovenes - were the enemies again.

„I had no tears, for nobody.“

Towards the end of the war the message came

that mother was dead.

I don’t know how they got to know about it.

I was so cold; I did not cry when they told me. Mother would not come back.

I had no tears; not for the aunt, for nobody.

I did not cry one single tear for anybody,

although I was really suffering about not being able to see these people.

Father had already died in August 1943.