European Resistance Archive/European Resistance Archive (ERA)

I still can’t understand why the English

let themselves be so influenced by the Nazis

and we – the partisans and the Slovenes - were the enemies again.

„I had no tears, for nobody.“

Towards the end of the war the message came

that mother was dead.

I don’t know how they got to know about it.

I was so cold; I did not cry when they told me. Mother would not come back.

I had no tears; not for the aunt, for nobody.

I did not cry one single tear for anybody,

although I was really suffering about not being able to see these people.

Father had already died in August 1943.

I had forgotten all about him.

Whenever someone asked me:

“Are you sad that your mother won’t come any more?”

I always answered: “No, I’m not sad.”

I said that out of defiance and out of furiousness.

I got so furious when someone asked me about that.

I either didn’t answer at all or I just coldly said: “No, I’m not sad at all.”

Although I was very sad, really, that nobody would come back to the house of my birth.